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Short-term Goals
-Quit being so selfish.
-Quit being depressed all the time. Well, at times I feel this great happiness inside and I'm filled with laughter. (I hope it is not from the traces of mercury in the air. I wonder what clean air is like. I'd like to take a time machine to, let's say...400 AD). But, at times, I feel depressed, a lot. I need help. Can someone recommend something theraputic to end this depression?
-Make close friends. I have some friends, I think. At least I think of them as friends. I don't know if they think of me as their friends. My closest friend lives in Iowa. I can't wait to visit him. He's letting me hold a bunch of his stuff because he's quitting his job, leaving his apartment, and being homeless for a while. I don't realy have too much in common with my others friends.
-Become comfortable around others. Lately, I feel uncomfortable around everyone. Most people make me feel awkward these days. I don't know what it is. People have been putting me down too, even the ones I consider friends. I'm easy to make fun of. I think I piss some of my friends off though when I disagree with them. Sometimes I should just shut up and not speak my mind. Or maybe I should keep speaking up more.
-Teach a lot of the younger "scene" kids some ethics and to be more socially aware. I guess it's "scene" these days to shop at the mall and buy sweat shop labored GAP jeans and the like. Or maybe that's just the Peoria scene. I don't know what went wrong. I remember when touring bands used to pass out zines about that kind of stuff. (Don't get me wrong. I'm just as bad. Not everything I buy, I admit, is ethically responsible. People just need to be more aware about these things.) I've been consuming Starbucks lately. I like their stuff. I used to boycott them. But I read one of their pamphlets about how their products are "fair trade" now. I don't know how true that is though. When I get Starbucks, I tell them to replace milk with soy milk.
-Meditate much, much, much, much, much, much more and fall in love with G-d.
PS - If you ever think I'm wrong or misinformed on here, please tell me. That's why this is public. This isn't a real journal. It's has an audience, and you're probably just reading for entertainment. |
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Josh,
i honestly think of you as a close friend, even if i might not always show it or keep in touch like i want to. :) i'm always willing to listen to you or talk.
hey EF face... i miss you..
and i like what you says 'bout the anti-consumeristic/shop ethically thang...
good job.
UNFORTUNATELY... starbucks=bigtimeliars.... they even tried to have the standards of "Fair trade" changed so they could more easily claim their brew is "good"... they could have recently changed things, but the pamphlet i read about being fair trade centered on the story of one particular "impoverished" farmer from africa .. but the wording was really vague. basically they only SELL fair trade, and i havent found a store that actually brews it.... and they are a pretty angry corporation, in terms of putting momnpop places out of business.. just you know.. urban sprawl... so i personally dont support them ... but im glad you're thinking about where your stuff is coming from!!
ps. props to the soy milk
<3
if youre doin nothing tonight.. come to the henry fair!!!!!!!!
I have a different pamphlet. I'll show you it sometime.
I would love to go to the Henry Fair. I've never been to it before. But unfortunately, I have to work tonight. Boo on that! But we should defly hang out in the near future.
From: ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=92.1) theredsea
2005-07-17 11:10 pm (UTC)
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I think you are one of the nicest guys I have met in Peoria. We should hang out sometime. I am supposed to go to a movie in the park with a few friends on Tuesday, you are more than welcome to come.
Dan
Awesome. That sounds great. I have no plans on Tuesday, so I'm up for that.
kudos to you for wanting to teach ethics. it needs to be done, and not just especially in little places like peoria, but you see larger places like here in the valley that are full of the same kind of kids. especially in tempe with all the well-off scenesters that go to ASU.
on the good side, they'll all be gone in 2 or 3 years anyway. huh...
Peoria's not little. At least not to me. It's the 4th most populated city in the sixth most populated state. But it ranks like 100th in population in the u.s. I guess it's based on perception.
From: theredsea
2005-07-18 11:07 pm (UTC)
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Oops... series of unfortunate events is TONIGHT so we are meeting at Panera bread around 8. ( the westlake one )
See ya,
Dan
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Oh, I had to work tonight. It's cool though. We can hang out some other time.
falling in love with G-d does wonders in the dissipation of depression.. so does knowing that for every low there's a high. i live in this constant oscillation between the two.. at one point i distrusted both my good and my bad moods because i knew one would always be followed by its opposite. now, i just take them for such as they are.
thumbs up for the ethics.. especially in a scene that's supposed to be all about that but suddenly *isn't*.. 's time to talk some sense into kids when shopping locally, ethically, fairly and all that becomes passé.
wow i didn't know you were so depressed. sadness. well that proves that things (ipods) to not lead to happiness.ha. well...yeah i try to remember:
delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart! (psalm 37:4)
cause it's true :) hope you're having a great summer!
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yo yo pardee joshie